Monday, February 27, 2023

Vivek on Perippa

Saying goodbye to Lt. Col. I S Sundaram (Retd.)

My dearest Doddappa, you are leaving today. You are 99. Didn't you want to score a century like your favourite cricketeer, Gavaskar? Remember, you used to come riding on your aqua-coloured Lambretta (with its diagonally placed stepney) to pick Anna up and go watch the test matches at Chinnaswamy stadium. You didn't take me along since I wasn't old enough to understand the late-cuts and the LBWs.

You sent me back my letters and post cards I wrote you, with red ink all over, pointing out at all the errors. I know you were the favourite student of your English teacher at St.Joseph's because you scored the highest marks in the subject even with other European kids in your class. You always believed in sharing knowledge. Even after you retired you decided to keep yourself busy and teach trigonometry and calculus to college students - those subjects scared me. You used to prepare for classes even before the students turned up and no wonder The Hindu ran a feature on you.

Doddappa, when you were at your Chord Rd house in Bangalore we spoke in Kannada with each other. And even when we met at Coimbatore we still conversed in Kannada - your Kannada was so good (with a bit of Tamil accent)! You called me Kullappa - the short one! 

Your Coimbatore house - 50, South End Road - is filled with memories of my vacations. I used to stay in the room on the terracotta-tiled terrace, where Appa and Amma lived for a bit as newly-weds. The almond tree and Doddamma's large kitchen garden was my playground. It took me two days to muster courage and ask for your huge Pentax binoculars that you had from your days in the army. Once I told you about my interest in bird-watching you didn't bat an eyelid and let me have it. It was one of the happiest days of my life - I still have the fellow with me, albeit with a little fungus over it.

You were always an army man - clean shaven every single day even after decades of quitting your brigade. You never had a paunch. You were tall - in every sense of the word. It was only fitting that we gave you nice shave with an electric shaver and Akka tells me that you ran your fingers over your face in appreciation. You must have said to yourself, 'Now, am ready to go.'

Doddappa, you've left a little bit of yourself in all of us. Through Anna's poetry, through my writing (with some errors, of course), and more importantly, through the unshakable need to live a life guided by truth and kindness that all your children have imbibed from you. 

Goodbye, Doddappa.

Monday, February 20, 2023

Gehry


You just go with it. And it takes you somewhere. It is a great experience. Frank Gehry on creativity.

Eye

Where is the intelligence of your eye going to take you low-key? Be grateful to your mother loki. Be grateful to God loki for giving you a supreme Kai. Hi EYA hi EYEEEYE.

Sunday, February 19, 2023

Saturday, February 18, 2023

Wednesday, February 8, 2023

Blackness

I am not black. 
I am a pure soul in a black body 

I am not blank
I am in a black body 

Loki

Loki is equal to family, love, art, nature

Notes on dressing

Never wear black. 

Pants 
5 pairs of the soft jeans  
3 corduroys 
3 dress pants - dark greatly, light great, navy, 
3 light pants 

Shirts 
Dark blue - must! 
Grays - maybe 3 
Linen shirts for summer
Soft white comfortable 



Notes

Fuse figure and landscape 

Monday, February 6, 2023

A prayer for the road of life



I am focused on the forward, on what I see in front of me. With my chin up and a twinkle in my eye, I am radiating a steely calm and smiling. I am   holding firmly the grip of my wheel and driving with confidence, knowing that I am preparing myself to inhabit the very best of my interior and exterior life with my soulmate Lisa, with whom, I am enjoying every detail of my life journey. God is great. 

Saturday, February 4, 2023

Pramod Babu - Reflections on Tempo

Tempo determines a life. My lesson from Bahauddin Dagar yesterday. In Japan I viewed the tea ceremony as a pleasant anachronism - while waiting impatiently for my tea and its eventual consumption. If modernity could be a person, well, I only had to look in the mirror. My chief feature reflected back was "blur". 

Anyway Bahauddin Dagar is the tea ceremony applied to a musical sense. It is equally unfathomable to the modern. It is the tempo of patience taken to the point of luxury. A promise that all good things do come in time and the meantime is worth all your consideration. Inconceivable today!

I saw this passage today from an interview with Ernst Junger:



Yesterday I found a little bit of the old world - still intact. A minor miracle!

And I met V and N.


Pramod Babu - Notes

Logess - I feel you embody Nietzsche's most quoted quote: what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I think to have undergone the losses and defeats you have and yet possess the disposition that you do, makes you a very special person. I wish that your sweetness continues to temper and even overcome the harshness of this earthly environment. I am grateful to have you as a dear friend.

Pramod Babu on wonder

"Concepts create idols; only wonder comprehends anything. People kill one another over idols. Wonder makes us fall to our knees."

- Gregory of Nyssa



I think this wonder is all of life. It operates at some attenuated level in every moment but when it's amplified (ie it shines brighter when the river of thought is no longer in spate), it is real comprehension. 

It is the absence of wonder that makes life burdensome

- Pramod Babu 

Friendship

"Friendship cannot be separated from reality any more than the beautiful. It is a miracle, like the beautiful. And the miracle consists simply in the fact that it exists."

- Simone Weil

Pramod Babu - Centurions

Semi-Centurion
—————————

The Centurions had their legions
We too have fought wars
And now at half the number
Our legionaries stand behind us.
Always mere witnesses
But testament to our vigilance,
temperance, dexterity, strength,
and lack thereof.
We turn around and see them arrayed
Always at the crossroads
A life over fifty years.

Oct 2022

Pramod Babu - Letter

Logess - I am always the lucky one to be the beneficiary of your love and affection. Truly I am blessed! 

I'm glad you had a successful and happy trip to India. It was really good for Lisa to meet your family. She's such a lovely person (despite her many superhuman accomplishments!) and I was very happy to meet her too. 

I was also gladdened to see the loving relationship between you and Lisa. And your happiness shines on your face now - that is more than enough.

I hope your art climbs new heights and that your photography continues unabated and you do ever more great work. 

Lots of love,

Pammi

Jan 2023

Pramod Babu - Reflections

Lisa and Loki
==========

I know the alchemy of tea (or so I presume)
Warmth and wakefulness
Perhaps even stillness
But the fluid dynamics of boiling water,
Well, no scientist has yet fathomed the bloom.

The commonplace has never existed.

Each glance falls on mystery, each turn, surprise
And yet the world seems confused, dazed
No doubt the expanse of wonder fancying its own disguise

Let us pretend such confusion, sheer ordinariness and boredom, was real
Even in such a world
The love story of Lisa and Loki would at once summon amazement to kneel

What scale of awe can we speak about here?


Pramod Babu - Modern

Modern
—————

I have no confidence 
that my ancestors were wise
that we can rely on the sensed
that our lot is wonder and gratitude.
O deaf Power, speak my persuasions
For my tongue is frozen by icy derangement.
How strange a luxury - to be liberated 
From even the distant glimmers of 
Truth's mere refractions.


(On listening by the work of Bahauddin Dagar, Feb 2023) 

Friday, February 3, 2023

Derek Fordjour - Advice to Lisa


Trust God. 

Go in the direction of your power. 

Simple to follow: 


Who are you? 

You are not Goldman 

What is your power? 

What has always been your power? 

Do that, which is your power. 

——

Work the hardest

Explore the farthest 

Of that, which is your power. 

—- 

Work like you will not be here next year 

What would you do then? 

Your last chance?  


——-


Surround yourself 

By all things, that is your power

Remind yourself, who you are..


——

Eliminate distractions. 

Don't be distracted by things 

That come by way of your power. 

—-


When you are in the abode of your power,

You are you, 

as God put you on this earth for. 

——-

Don't dance for other people

Dancing for others is a distraction. 


—— 


Don't fall for other people's opinion of you

You become their agenda

You spiral.. 

——

You spiral when you are unsure of yourself

You are in murky water

You are inviting ghosts from your past

You are believing others

 Not you.


——- 

You've got to plant your feet firmly

In the power that God gave you


——

Be you. 

The way you have been since 4th grade. 

That's who you are. 

—— 




Wednesday, February 1, 2023


Toll booths
Muggers 

money managers collecting service fee

Control

Control is the agent of anxiety

-lm- 

Open minded

Be open minded, the world will open up to you 
Open minded = why not (for everything) 

Loki muthu 
(the world has opened up to me)